Showing posts with label feelings. Show all posts
Showing posts with label feelings. Show all posts

Sunday, July 12, 2009

why people change?

Why people change? I have been thinking over it from last few days since I have observed some change in the behavior of one of my near one. Is it just natural for a person to change without any reason or is something going inside his/her mind? We always think that we know much about people whom we are close to? But the question has started distressing me …do I really know? If that would have been true I would have never felt this change? Which is upsetting me daily with thousands of depressing things peeping into my head…? So what should I do now?
Shall I speak up about this change to him/her or should I remain quiet and observe his/her behavior for some more time….can anyone predict human nature? I don’t know whether people change at all. But I know the way a person behaves is sometimes so unexpected that we feel that they have changed….and same is the case with me.
Last few days and nights I have been thinking over this change?
Why has this change occurred?
When I don’t see any reason to change at all…
Am I so cold-blooded, insensitive and heartless that I couldn’t understand his/her feelings…or is the other one who has stopped thinking about me…?
How should I deal with this change which is making me to sob day and nights…?
Since the day I have felt this change I am not happy. I always try to cheer up myself that if something is mine, that will always be mine…and if not…then think that it was never mine…
But my heart is such that it doesn’t get soothed by these things. It always prompt me to find out the cause…which again questions me back…if my love for him/her did not change, how could he/she do so?
If my feelings are same as they were years ago……how he/she is not able to feel them now…
Why I feel saddened with every answer that I hear from him/her for my questions....
Have they really changed themselves or is it me who has increased her expectations from him/her….
Which one is true…I don’t know…
I know that I need him/her very much in my life to love, care, support and walk the every step of life with me…But I am confused as how should I speak this to him/her. I fear what if I get disappointing answer…I fear the breaking of my heart….But then again same thought occurs to my mind. If he/she wants to break my heart…He/she will definitely do that one day…so I should go and speak to him/her about this change…But I fear to face rejection. I know I can’t cope with the disappointing answer……I have almost zero ego strength. Hence I have decided to let happen things as they are
Happening with the same thought in mind …
If something’s yours and you let it go,
if it comes back to you, then it was yours all along.

Sunday, May 31, 2009

Still living in dimness...........................


Indian government has banned employment of children below 14 years a long back ago in 2006. The penalty for flouting the law is a jail term ranging from three month to 2 years with or without fine that could range from 10,000 to 20,000. But that doesn’t seem to have left any impact on our country or its people even after 3 years of its implementation. So where did we go wrong? These days too we can notice lot of kids working in dhaba’s, small shops, or on the railway stations. Children of age 8-10 can be frequently seen in trains cleaning the birth and near by area. It looks like if the law was just made on papers, and was never a serious concern of either the government or the law makes who essentially came with this. We can still give explanation for some uneducated people, (like people from small shops or dhaba’s employing these kids for the reason that the government failed to create awareness about its new law that prevent kids below 14 from working). But what about our so called learned people…..I had my interview in ITM business school; I went to Mumbai via train. Throughout my journey I saw several kids below 14 selling tea, fruits etc…..but I was surprised to see a toddler within the campus of business school. They say they are grooming leaders for tomorrow, I don’t know what type of leaders they are preparing by employing a kid who is still in his child hood and almost certainly may not know what does leaders of tomorrow means. A business school has people who are very knowledgeable, scholarly and socially responsible. Then how can they close their eyes to this? They simply talk of teaching corporate social responsibility to young managers…Is this the sort of corporate responsibility they are teaching? A business school charges a single student somewhere between 8 to 12 lakh every year. By that figure it must be earning a good amount in a year bearing in mind its student intake capacity to its various courses. Can’t they employ any young man above 14 who is on the lookout for work? (Generally kids are paid less) They earn so much of money that they can finance that child education….but that is just my imagination because I know it will never happen. But still I have a ray of hope from them that one day they will wake up to this and will not at least take a kid’s childhood from him. It doesn’t end with that college. Still in many offices you can see kids serving tea…etc…..
We are educated; we understand what a childhood means. We can feel it…we have gone through it. We are socially responsible, financially independent...… Moreover we are well informed about this……and we know that we are capable of bringing this change.
Still no one is doing anything….These issues most of the times go unreported by media…..They will report everything including what Indian cricketers did eat? They will report whether kareena put the lipstick or not? They will report sachin is watching movie with his family…But they hardly highlight issues for which the MEDIA term came into existence. If we so called “learned people” of this society disregard such concerns then how can we blame people who are not only living their own life in the darkness but also making thousands of kids to undergo the same….We just cannot expect them to be aware of these things when we have closed our eyes ………..even after seeing it, feeling it…..and lastly knowing about it that It pains a lot if we just imagine our own son or daughter or brother/sister in the same place……